I’m sure you probably haven’t been wondering where I’ve been this whole time. Its been right around 6 months since my last blog post and to say I sort of fell of the face of the earth wouldn’t be too much of a stretch. I mean I didn’t literally but, I did take a much needed break.
But before we get into why I’ve been missing, I’d like to say that I truly hope everyone had an amazing Christmas and that you’re looking forward to this new year that is upon us. I did and I am. 2019 is full of possibilities, just like each year is.
What are your goals and dreams for this year? I don’t ask people’s resolutions because honestly, very rarely are those kept. But what would you like to see happen in your life this year?
I was struck with inspiration to sit down and write out my goals for my family over the next 10 years. I’ve never done this in my whole life, never felt like I needed to. As my kids and I were out walking one day last week a line from a song got me asking God about what it meant. Not like I got a song stuck in my head, it was one line from one song and then it was gone. No sooner had I asked God what that meant, did a floodgate open and all of these thoughts came rushing into my head. It was overwhelming. So I extended my walk and prayed, and it was like these thoughts and goals sort of got placed into a timeframe. It’s really interesting to see how God works sometimes.
Well, during the summer I had started making a blog plan. I’d write on certain days to post on certain days. This plan would also have what topics I would write about. I felt like a “real blogger”. I followed all sorts of blogger groups on FB, considered taking all kinds of courses. Each post was about things I’d like to read and all of that. It just didn’t feel like I was doing any of it for the right reasons. Like I had deviated from the original goal of the blog. When I started the blog, it was because God said so. My word of the year last year was move so when He said move, I did. But after a while it felt like I was chasing the likes, the views, the shares when He never said to do that, He just said write.
So what if only my friends or family read it, maybe that’s who was meant to read it.
Now it took me about 5-ish months to come to this realization. I was content with letting the blog go, not renewing my hosting and just saying “well, I gave it a shot”. But did I really? Did I try going back to the original purpose? Nope, I sure didn’t, not until now. I’m going back to the last instruction God gave me regarding this and keeping it simple. (my pastor would be so proud to know someone has been listening all year) I’ll post what’s on my heart, maybe a mom interview here and there because I LOVED those, share some things I’ve been loving or not loving and just keep it REAL. I’ve always kept it real with every post but, I lost myself a little in getting noticed. And now it’s back to doing it because I enjoy it.
Would it be cool if it “got noticed”? Sure but honestly, if I turn out to be the only one who ever reads these, that’s ok. As long as I’m being obedient to what God has asked of me, then who cares if anyone else reads it. I mean yes, I want y’all to read it of course but that’s not my main goal in this life anymore.
So I hope to see y’all around here interacting with me either in the comments or on social media. Let me know if you’ve made any significant realizations in your life recently.
Have an amazing day y’all, see ya next time!!